Artist and Viewer
Been trying to upload this video for a while now. I think it was just too big, so I created a page on my website and added it there. Hopefully it will work. It is so frustrating to run into technical problems on such a limited time line. Babies naps are only so long.
It was a brutal process with all the deadline changes and my professor pushing me to do it to the best of my ability. But Liubo really is a wonderful professor and I am honored to know him…
Baby’s awake.
Chinese Brush Painting
When I was teaching high school, one of the things I loved was researching new ideas for projects. One of my most successful was the shadow drawing. I will at some point post some more info about it.
The high school teaching did not work out, and I am currently attending school to get my second masters degree. I dread having to pay the student loans. However, I did purchase a chinese brush painting kit to experiment with and see if I could do it. Needless to say, it’s been sitting on a shelf tormenting me for some time. I thought when I had the baby I would have lots of nap time to kill, and chinese brush painting could keep me busy. Not so much. The baby only sleeps 20 minutes at a time, and by the time he goes down at night, I am pretty beat. He has been asleep today for 45 minutes. So what am I doing? Reading blogs, writing e-mails, reading msn.com…basically not doing any chinese brush painting.
I am going to stop writing and start practicing. I hope to practice for a few weeks, and then do some finished piecces. Someone is waking, so I won’t get anything done today…
Thanks!!
So I literally joined Blogger less than 30 minutes ago. To my new followers, thank you so much. I am so psyched you are interested. I am hitting the studio Monday night and I will be posting what I worked on. I have no idea what that will be, but just knowing someone is interested will keep me motivated.
Can’t wait to keep up with everyone.
Best
K
Getting Caught Up in the Minituiae
So I have been writing in my journal, waiting for responses to request for permission to recommend sites, starting and stopping my website that desperately has to be redesigned, and waiting to hear from adsense. (I think.) So I feel like there is too much going on and I am not getting anywhere. My kid went to bed late and my husband is still not home, and I am cranky and starving. So I feel off the wagon and need to get back on.
Would a to-do list help? Maybe. But I know what to do. It just all feels so big, and I am getting caught up in the details. So it seems to get larger. I have to make this happen. I need the money I may or not make. I gotta try. Maybe I will get somewhere tomorrow. Here’s hoping. And pizza. I want pizza.
Why I never finish anything I start
I’ve started photography projects and never finished printing or got to mounting. I have started several portfolios, online and on paper. My friend even gave me a really cool metal box to create a cool foldout portfolio, and I have the layout on the computer. I started a scrapbook of my son, but stopped after less than a month. I have an amazing studio in Brooklyn, DUMBO, the place to be these days. Never go because the commute sucks. I have created installation pieces for my MFA that I did not document and never did anything with. I have boxes full of art supplies that I wanted to use… I am becoming a packrat.
I have the best of intentions. I want to be a full time artist. I want to make a living spending half my time painting in a great studio and half my time schmoozing with cool art people. I think I am good. But I have not gotten that one person to take me under their wing. Even if they did, I don’t think I would believe their faith in me and I would fail. I have always found ways to be on the fringe. And I have always found ways to sabotage myself.
Why is that? Does it sound familiar? I’ve read the books and done the exercises and been to therapy and tried to be this person that I believe is inside me. But it is so hard.
There’s mom and dad not getting it. There are all my non-art friends. The older I get, the farther away NYC feels. There was the design jobs and the living in the suburbs and the life I thought I was supposed to lead in the suburbs, including manicures and the mall. There was the occasional show or sale, but never the recognition I wanted. I even did a series that I thought was unique and could be Soho gallery material. But no one seemed to get it. Was it that bad? Or did I just see more in it than was really there? Or did I not market it right? Anyway, I did the one series, then went back to school for digital art.
Now I don’t go the shows for digital art because of work and the baby… the baby is all consuming. I forget to take pictures. And I don’t work on the scrapbook.
For those who have the same issues as me, I recommend the books by Julia Cameron called the Artist Way. The Success Principles are also good.
Maybe starting a blog will help me get started being an artist again…
Welcome
Welcome to a day in the studio. Thank you for coming here.
I am an artist and designer. I like to paint when I can get over my fears of being creative and can find the time to get to my studio which is an hour away from my home. I have a BFA in design and I worked in publishing for a long time. Now I am in school getting my MFA so I may teach college full time some time soon. I am focusing on digital and installation art although I continue to paint.
I am a stay at home mom for now - back to work in September - and I am not sure where this blog will go and how I will make it stand out from all the other blogs out there. But I gotta stop procastinating and let it take shape as I work on it. There’s always the delete button. I guess it’s better than not doing it at all. I hope.
I am hoping to write some interesting articles, get some friends to give their professional input and motivate myself to do some new work, including my thesis.
So I will sign off for now, and start working on a post for tomorrow. And work on getting some ads so this can pay for itself.
Best
Kathleen
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